… well actually debt is one problem that I don’t have. My health is good as well, and I’m very grateful to Jay Lake and others for reminding me how lucky I am about that. If I wiggle my nose hard enough, maybe some of the good wishes I’m getting today will go to help my friends who are sick.
The trouble is that when you start getting on in years birthdays cease to be a time of celebration and instead become and excuse to wonder whether there is any point in carrying on living. That’s a particularly daft thing to so on such a beautiful day as today, but of course the fabulous nature of the weather only serves to remind me of where I had intended to spend today, and who I had intended to spend it with.
Even more annoyingly, if I was in California I would be facing the very real possibility that I’d be stuck there for the foreseeable future. The flight I had been intended to catch back to the UK has almost certainly been canceled by now.
However, life happens, and you get to contemplate other things. In my case right now that’s mostly an exercise in frustration. I can’t do anything much about the future until I’ve actually moved into the cottage. I have another week of chewing my nails to go yet. After that I can just let the nesting instinct take over and I’ll have a bunch of projects to concentrate on.
Meanwhile, of course, I continue to contemplate online stuff, because that’s the only way I’ll get to interact with most of you from now on. I won’t be able to go to the US, and once I’m paying rent I won’t be able to afford to travel much (this year aside, as I’ve made commitments that I don’t want to back out of, even if it does mean eating into savings).
One thing I have noticed is that I’ve had more birthday greetings than ever before. That’s mainly though Facebook, but also through Twitter as well. I have finally found something that Facebook is good for. Of course now I’m feeling guilty that I don’t send birthday greetings through Facebook myself, but with the number of “friends” I have I’d be sending out 2-3 messages a day, mostly to people I’ve never met. That, again, is Facebook for you.
Anyway, thank you for all of the kind messages. In two weeks time, when I’m settled into a place of my own, I shall get around to celebrating, and probably having a little shopping spree for kitchen gadgets. Until then, it is back to worrying about the future.